I’ve not made this baby a priority lately which isn’t good because I love writing and getting my thoughts and feelings all out. I’m going to change that as of now. I’ve been feeling very off lately, but not in a bad way I guess, just very confused. I think way too much, my brain is always going, I barely sleep, I go out too much to stop thinking, I waste my money and time, I just feel like I’m in a never ending pattern, you know? I don’t know how to break it. I just look for something to do so I don’t stay home bored. I don’t have heaps of friends in Campbelltown that actually want to hang out, most of the friends that I’d want to be around live about an hour away or in different states. I like socialising and being with people, I’ve gotta stop being so lazy and just drive up and see my friends.I feel like there’s a lot happening but then nothing happening at the same time. I wanna do so much but then sit and be lazy. I wanna meditate but I can’t stop thinking. I wanna start exercising but I don’t wanna walk out the door. I’m a walking contradiction. I’m just so confused about everything. This isn’t a negative rant either, I’m just letting all my thoughts fly.
I’ve got some projects coming up in the next few weeks, some shoots will be taking place which is super exciting! I’ve been looking into photography/social media/styling courses so I can leave my job. I really don’t like my workplace, if anyone knows of any jobs please hit me up so I can leave lol. I’ll be starting a new part of my blog which will be called ‘Profile’ and be about the people I am inspired by. I want to try and do this with people I take photos of and anyone else that catches my eye. It’s time to knuckle down on this!
I know everyone feels confused, sometimes I feel like I’m the only one that doesn’t know what the heck they’re doing on this planet. Where am I going to live? How do I save for anything? What am I doing for the rest of my life? Sometimes I feel weak, because the people before us could do it, why can’t we? I’m heading in so many different directions with this post but it’s just about how confused I am and how confusing this has been to read. It’s 12:36am, I’m still up. Just sorting through the sift that is my brain.